Thursday, March 5, 2009


Tagay pa!

Tatlong taon...
Matagal-tagal din yun...
Sapat na para makaipon ng malaking pera, para makakuha ng sertipiko ng dalawang taong kuraso sa kolehiyo, para makalakad, makapagsalita, at makatakbo ang isang sanggol, para matapos ang isang pares ng twin tower, milyun-milyong katang ang maipanganak, matapos ang tatlong teleserye ng ABS-CBN, kalahati ng termino ni Arroyo at marami pang pwedeng mangyari sa tatlong taon. Pero sa buhay ko? Walang nangyari. Umasa lng ako ng umasa sa alam kong walang patutunguhan.
Oo!!! Mahal ko siya ng sobra sobra, higit pa sa tatay ko o sa aso namin, higit pa sa buhay ko. Pero walang nangyari, tatlong taon din yun. SAYANG!!
Mahirap talagang umasa sa alam mong walang pag-asa, pero sumubok ako at sumugal. Nag baka sakaling meron pa. Pero wala na talaga. At nang makuha ako ng tiyempo, tinapon ko na lang bigla ang tatlong taon. Biglang-bigla.
Nakalimutan ko na siya ngayon, hindi ko alam kung bakit, hindi ko alam kung papaano. Pero wala na siya sa isip ko. Maniwala ka, promise, sigurado ako, pangako, walana TAPOS na!!!
Hindi ko siya inisip.
Hindi ko sya naiisip.
Hindi ko na siya iisipin pa.
Nakalimuta ko na siya. Maniwala ka, promise, sigurado ako, pangako, walana TAPOS na!!!
"Pare,paabot ng baso...
tagay ko na...
Alak pa..."

Monday, February 9, 2009


8th DEADLY SIN

Proudly, I am the president of the council in our school. It is a highly respected yet full of responsibility position. I am working very hard yet underpaid.


In this love month, I planned to have a valentine showin our school and one of the highlight is the Dating Game. But, one time when I sat on my office alone, I thought of a mere fact that I have this "something" that killing me, making me out of concentrate, and out my mind. That I am working for every student to be happy and to think that im makinga perfect match for them, But me, myself is not happy. then i imagined myself attempting a suicide.


I can do anything that i want, but i cant make myself happy and be loved. I can take my life away but i cant please anybody to make me love as i am. And in a glimpse, I am at the corner trying to be calmed by my co-officer and telling me not to do that again, cause it's dangeruos. From then, I found that LOVE can kill anybody, anyone, even itself..., even you..., even ME.

Monday, February 2, 2009

AUDIT



AUDIT

Until when you are a son
of your mother that
decided not to be a mom
for you, that
your dad surrendered to be father?

How much your personality
that you have credited for his sperm?
and rented for her placenta that
you had for those dark months?
for the much long time of crediting

Until when you are a son or not
for the parents that you cannot paid
by kindness, knowledge and hard work
for all of their capital
that you had been lost?

When will you became a man
if your navel was just a
scar for the 9 months you had in her
and in your name,
there's the mark of your tied-up with your dad?

Friday, January 30, 2009

LEAVE the way you LIVE




How can i love a person i dont even know, i didnt met, even see him?

That was what im feeling right now.. it is very hard to love a person who just in your mind. creating an image of a person and suddenly loving him with from nothingness.. I dont know if this is a kind of telepathy (well i dont believe in such a thing) of mine but one thing's for sure... im INLOVE.

Heatrs' Day is coming, but still om all alone here in the dark room. knowing nothing, dreaming something, and thinking some indecent and inhumane. If this is whats love meant to me... Then i dont wanna live anymore. Love is just a play thats hurting me and suddenly.. killing me.

love is only for the boys and girls, for them who was told by the priest to love each other. And for me,... love is nothing.. love depends on money, on how much can you give, on how long your rich power will through, on how you dealing with them, on how many times you've tried..

i dont want this love..
I dont want you...
I dont want the way it is..
I dont want to pay..
I dont want to live...

Monday, July 14, 2008



I dont believe in LOVE
until I found
You

Thursday, June 26, 2008

HIM


http://wwwlove4rent.blogspot.com/



Love is for those
who follow their heart
for the boys and girls
who seek for their part

LOVE is for those
who have a relationship,
who promise to be the best
and be with you whatever you do

LOVE is for those
who are in the bible
that was told by the priest
to love each other

but LOVE is the worst
for us in the THIRD WORLD
I am asking you lord
where is the LOVE that you've told?